Why I Really Shouldn't Claim Myself as Much of an Otaku

If any of you are reading, hopefully you're already pretty well aware of who the hell is writing this blog in the first place. And--most likely--you're from Twitter. Now, if you're from Twitter and are on this site (of all the obscurities on the god damned Internet), then you're probably interested into anime, manga, video games and so forth. And as awesome as I love the feeling of seeing people who love anime follow me on Twitter, I honestly do not know all too much on anime.

You see, I'm a bit of a late breed. I've only been into anime for less than a year, so I've been doing everything to the best of my abilities of fitting in and understanding everything of being an otaku. But of course, there's a major flaw with this. For, you see, I just became interested in anime around January, thanks to Haruhi. But any sort of shows or famous history of anime before 2010, I'm very unfamiliar with.

I've been so unfamiliar with it, in fact, that just mere minutes ago, I JUST learned of god damned Train Man (thanks to the lovely services of the manlyhood-tearing jHYtse). This book (which I would LOVE to read right now, honestly) is a popular novel among otaku, from the looks of Wikipedia. But this is just one sign that I have the brain of an asinine monkey when it comes to anime.

OMG ANIME HAS BEWBIEZ,LALWZ

Another thing to note of me is that if you were to show me a picture of a random anime character from some random anime, chances are I don't know who the fuck it is. And I don't mean like an absolutely obscure show that nobody even knows anyways, I'm talking some well known anime, like.......

...............

Well, there ya go. I can't even think of a damned example of any anime. But there's more to it than just some anime character. Let's speak about some popular sites among the Internet involving anime, such as 4chan. Do you have ANY idea of how long ago I just learned of this website and understood what it was? Probably less than 2 or 3 weeks ago, really (thanks again to the kick-ass of BlackStriker201)

How about a site such as Danbooru? Well, I had to look in my bookmarks just now to remember the freakn' name, so that pretty much sums up how much I know of that site. What about some other site, like that dorky blog with that annoying ass kid who writes about stupid shit of his life? I think it was called Otaku Eagle or some shit...

...Wait....SHIT.

I just came across the sites from either various tweets or hunted them down myself. What do I know of these sites? Well, 4chan I know is an image board that posts pictures mainly relating to anime related, usually. As for Danbooru, it just looks like a rule34 with an even more diverse way of tracking down stuff (such as positions), but it isn't as full of porn as rule34, at least. That's about the best way I can sum up those sites, because I found them and simply had to figure out what the flying-camel-shit-fuck they were.

Is that how everybody else started using these sites? Heard about them from somewhere, checked them out, and deduced what they were from there on? Because if I attempted at that, I usually don't feel confident with myself of it because I'm not 100% sure that's what the sites were.

Hell, for all I know, I could be making a mockery out of myself right now at how complicated I'm looking at just figuring out these sites. But that's how I've always felt when it came to something involving anime and such, ever since I first saw anime back in '07. I always felt like something as simple an anime, that's soul purpose was to entertain, somehow has people insulting it for having fan service, or being moe, or something of that sort. And all though I've heard people who DO complain of that are usually morons, how the hell am I supposed to be aware of that when I just started watching this stuff a few months ago?

I Should have been born in the fucked up weirdness that was the 80s...

Is there some sort of magical trick I should be well aware of to help me keep up-to-par with everything I should know when it comes to this stuff? If so, please, someone, tell me. I guess a major reason for this was because that I was born in 1995, the year with a kickass James Bond movie that turned into a kickass video game...

...But I digress. I was born pretty freakn' late to be interested in this stuff. I was born right in the prime of anime. And I was just fucking born, it took another 14 years until I just got into the stuff. It's like someone decided to plant cotton in the South in the 1950s (for those who don't know, the more we got into the modern age, the shittier it was for people who planted cotton). I was a little late to see all the awesome action. Sure, I could still do it, but it'll be much harder than it would've been had I been around about 200 years earlier (200 years, about 10 years for my situation, is there really a difference?).

So while most people were enjoying the prime of the 90s, I was still trying to comprehend the difference between candy and magnets. So, what I guess I'm really trying to ask to anyone reading this who has been into the anime stuff for years is... How the fuck did you go from not knowing what "otaku" meant to where you are now today? A website helped you that I'm unaware of? You did the shit on your own and didn't write an annoying post whining and bitching for help? Or did a magical fairy named Moe gave you the magical powers to help you understand any and everything otaku?

I have gained some assistance, such as what anime I should probably watch...

...Fuck, this could take a while.

...but I feel as though that I need a bit more assistance than just a list. What about any websites? Where are some good places to watch anime? Read manga? A good place to look up on this type of stuff? Anything of that sort. If you can (again, forgive me for sounding so cliche) leave a comment on this. Again, all I wish is good criticism (and by GOOD, I mean LOGICAL and WELL EXPLAINED...). Or you can just leave and go back to masturbating to that picture of someone boning Nagato, whatever you wish to.

Also, you can tell me of what you thought of how I wrote this. Need anything more to it? Too long or boring or maybe both? Too humorous or not humorous enough? Again, all GOOD criticism is welcome (again, by GOOD... yeah, you should know.).

Thanks for your time reading this, and have a nice day. Hop hop, cheerio, and all that~

The British have just as many Tea Parties as the Light Music Club, apparently...

The Troubles of My Life

The more and more I look at life, the more and more I start to see its flaws. The more and more I look at things, the more I question them, and attempt to understand them. I have such odd problems in my life that I still don't understand. Sometimes I wonder if the problems I have are either natural, or they're problems nobody has ever heard of, since nobody ever mentions them. Or maybe they're just something we all have on a sub conscious level.

Lets get my main point across in this post. One of my biggest questions about myself is this: Why am I thinking like this at all when I'm merely of the age of 14? Why? I'm 14 years old and am questioning the existence of man, for Christ's sake. If that isn't at least a little abnormal, then I have truly gone mad. Seriously, whenever I'm around people my age, all I can do is stare down in pity and them and ask,"Are you really that pathetically stupid?" Now, I'm not saying EVERY person my age is going to think like me. There are some people in the world that are far older than me and aren't even close to my intelligence. What I'm asking is... Am I different, or something? I don't want to sound like I'm the next Jesus Christ or something, but I feel like I'm different from a lot of other people. I'm absolutely not normal, that's for sure.

I feel like my mind has advanced 10 years ahead of what I should be thinking. When I was 8, I acted like I was 18 (in maturity, at least), now when I'm 14, I act like I'm 24. Is that normal or am I just more mature? What is it?! I've been thinking and questioning this for years now, and I still have not yet found the answer to some questions. I guarantee that if my family read this or maybe how I acted on other sites, their minds would be obliterated. So, what do you people think, the readers or this, or maybe you're an old friend from YouTube or Twitter or something. You people have seen how I act, how I think. You may have an answer to my questions. If you do (and please, please forgive me for sounding like someone who's on YouTube and keeps stating this over and over...), I would appreciate if you left a comment below. State your opinion on my situation, if you'd be so kind. If it is a negative criticism, I don't mind. Just don't turn your criticism into a comment full of slurs and insults. Other than that, any criticism is gladly accepted.

Thank you for reading this. May the future be kind to us all.

New Look

Well, as you can all see, the site has been changed a bit to help please the eyes. Before, it looked quite ugly and not so "special" per say. Now... well, it kinda still is... But for the most part, it at least looks somewhat better.

I was going to write up on something, but from all the bloody work I did to change the site, my brain has kinda run outta' juice. Sorry kids!

This hopefully ISN'T you.

But I think I'll be able to write some more later this week. If any of ya got any suggestions or ideas or something stupid like that, go ahead and say so on Twitter(so I'll actually feel special!).

So, that's really it. Bye bye~

EDIT 6/11/10:

So, thanks to Gloqwi for the suggestion. The templates are much better than the crappy defaults Blogger gave me. I like the site a little better now (especially with the fancy Twitter option), but it still needs to look better. I'll still probably try to hunt more templates online that fit my style. This one just isn't what I need, but it'll hold up for now. The site is still young, and I've made less than 5 posts, so it's not like people are browsing the site 24/7.

Until then, enjoy life.

Deep Thinking of America & Japan

I've decided on just how exactly I want this blog to turn up. I often think deeply about certain topics often, and always gain the urge to express myself of them. I have gained one of those thoughts today and will go into detail more of that later, but for now, let me put up the base of how these will turn out.

Now granted, I'm sure many of you are finding it very unusual for a 14 year old to gain a thinking of such levels that he needs to express himself with writing. Well, I guess you could say I'm a much more advanced one. I've thought so deeply on some things that it has made me really question the existence of man (maybe THAT will be a hell of a post in the future.). However, I'd like to ask those of you reading to not look at me as a 14 year old, writing gibberish just hoping people will read it and thinking I'm awesome either way. I wish for others to view me as any other.

Also, I honestly don't expect many people to be reading this at all, if not for long. I mean, who wants to read what a 14 year old American otaku has to say about life?

But let me cut to what I wish to state. As many otakus have probably only had wet dreams of, I've always wished to visit Japan. Oh my, how I wish to visit Japan. Sure, I want to go there to look at the anime, video games, manga, etc. But I don't wish to go just for that. As some of you may be aware of, I'm a bit of a WWII nut-case. And during this time, what country was Japan fighting against? Yep, the good ol' US of A. So it'd be nice to study up on the history of this Pacific war from the Japanese perspective, rather then always some old American history book telling me. Plus, I wish to, somehow, help improve our countries' relationship. Sure, Japan and America are allies and will continue to be. Hell, Japan has been nicknamed "The Great Britain of the Pacific" (from Great Britain being our greatest ally), which is quite a compliment to give to any country in ally with the US. But still, I feel that this relationship could be improved somehow.

Honestly, that's one of my life goals of trying to show other countries that America isn't a country full of either war crazy monsters or morons that have somehow gained the title of the most powerful country in existence. People often think America is stereotypically this, and it's drove me crazy to the point of wishing to aid it somehow. I'm 14, so I have a lot of time in life to plan for this, as well as other goals I wish to achieve over in the land of the rising sun. Even with this goal, this is also partially from another life goal of mine that I wish to tell others, yet I'm embarrassed at the amount of laughter that'll be coming out of them thinking how ridiculous and absurd it is. I think I've only told a handful of people-my parents aren't even aware of this-so if you know it, you must really be a good friend of mine! :3

Hopefully, this'll give you all an idea on what exact type of blog I hope to make. I hope some of you could relate to this, or just enjoyed read the thoughts of a (hell of an odd) 14 year old.